That Weekend

Friday...
• I woke up feeling like there was a ton of brinks lying on my chest... I looked in the mirror, and it was scary! Who knew the 1st place you start showing is not your stomach?!?!
• It was a normal Friday morning then I went into work at 1pm, but by I don't know 2pm wanted to take a nap!
• That night we had my team Christmas Party, and there was tons of yummy food! Problem is all I could think about eating was egg salad :( Yuck Right?!?

Saturday...
• We have a Saturday morning tradition. I lay in bed like a lazy butt while Michael makes breakfast, and then we eat in bed while the kids play. Well way too early I woke up and wanted eggs so bad, so I thought it would be sweet to make him breakfast in bed for a change!
• Mike noticed the Twins today... his reaction was a lot less WTH and more Heck YES!! LOL
• We went shopping, and I was so tired we checked into our hotel early instead of finishing our Christmas list. Mike even bought me new shoes to encourage me to shop, but all I wanted to do was sit down.
• That night we went to my favorite restaurant The Melting Pot! Yum yum yum... I wish they had egg salad on the menu :(

Sunday....
• We were supposed to get to sleep in all morning in our nice comfy hotel, but I woke up and literally had to eat... you guessed it EGGS!
• I decided I will be wearing scarfs no matter what for a while to cover up whatever was going on with my chest’s growth pattern!
• Mike went to the store to get some cough meds for Thing 2, and grabbed a test without me even asking him to. (We had decided that we were not testing this month seeing we had an appointment with a fertility specialist on the 30th).
• Most nights after we put Thing 2 to bed we sit and watch a show while we have some ice cream... this time I had egg salad...

Monday....
I woke and decided enough is enough with the egg salad, and I would take a test...
I was nervous that I was wrong... I didn't even have pregnancy symptoms with my 1st pregnancy until 9 weeks, and I didn't want to be making them up based on hope. I prayed the whole 2 minutes, took a deep breath...
I am not a fan of that whole "let me pee on a stick, and then show the world that pee stick", so I will just tell you...
We are pregnant!!

I spent the day counting hours until I could go home and tell the man I love. I doodled and daydreamed most of the day, and accomplished very little actual case work!

I did this on my folder as the way to tell a good friend who struggled to conceive who supported me through the last few month seeing she calls me the "Airman's bride" :)

We will be telling family before I post this, but I am so glad you are all a part of my journey!!!!!

Pick me up song!

I am not going to lie, every time that I have had downtime this week I have ended up worrying that we may never conceive. So when Mike and I cuddled up to watch our show the other night I asked him to not let this go too far (to protect me from my struggle to let things go when I want something so badly). We decided that we want a baby, but we don't want this “want” to overshadow or take away from the kids that we already have. We decided that we don't want to take any extreme measures, and we are not currently interested in adoption. My dream for this was to get pregnant, and have a baby with the man that I love. However we adore the kids that we have and could be abundantly happy exactly the way our family is. So we made a deal that we are giving this 100% to God, because obviously “control freak” Jacqui isn’t having any luck ;) We prayed about it, and set a date that if we haven’t conceived we will take this as God’s sign that we are on the wrong road, and will put the baby’s savings account into something that will build our marriage or family.
Then, yesterday, I heard a song on the radio… It was one of those “this song is just for me” moments! I quickly pulled it up on my phone (Thank God for smart phones lol), and I have listened to it over and over since. Above all of my dreams of being the perfect wife and mother of 3 is my desire to be on the road my God wants me on… to live my life not for myself, but for him.
Do I believe that God gives me the desires of my heart? Yes! But I also believe that they are not always exactly the way the I thought they would be, and honestly I have ended up so thankfully surprised when God’s plan came to fruition instead of mine so many times.
So this is my new pick me up song! I hope you like it!